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…ask yourself, right now, what sort of game you playin?

These relationships that you have with each other — what sort of game you playin?

Why you open and honest with people that aren’t even in your relationship???

Why do you feel you owe THEM the honesty you won’t even give your spouse(s)?
The fuck is WRONG with you?
(I’m not talking to any particular person. Don’t be vain.)
One thing my husband and I have with each other, is HONESTY and OPEN communication.
I prescribe it for ALL relationships where you are trying to build a unit and team.
If you aren’t open and honest, IT’S GOING TO FAIL. Fuck the bullshit.
(Dammit. I’m cursing again. But *smiles* it’s Monday, and my period is here. So fuck it. It feels fucking necessary)
As I said, I prescribe it to all my friends and my CLOSEST friends know that if their relationships didn’t work out — it’s because there was a lack of honesty and/or open communication.
*shrugs* it is what it is.
If you telling EVERYBODY ELSE but the person/people that are supposed to matter to you and your life the TRUTH about who you are, how you are, what you want and how you feel — you putting all your energy into the WRONG place.
Your energy is supposed to be put INTO the relationship you’re in.
How’s he/she/they supposed to know who you ARE if you don’t tell them? How’re they supposed to know HOW you are? How’re they supposed to know what you WANT? TRUTH IS, THEY DON’T KNOW SHIT ABOUT YOU BECAUSE YOU NOT TELLING IT TO THEM, YOU’RE TELLING IT TO OTHER PEOPLE.
You’re a COWARD. In your RELATIONSHIP. You’re SCARED. Because you’re living a FACADE. You’re a scam artist; you’re pretending to be something you’re not, to get someone you KNOW wouldn’t go for the person that you really are. You are going to FUCK IT UP because you won’t be able to keep it up forever!!!
None of you. How can you claim to love someone and lie to them about who you are, what you like and what you do?? You bitches are desperate! Being unable to get a husband for so long has got y’all selling your souls for one.

Brave people look at shit in the face. They may be scared — yes — but bad news is bad news!! If that person/people you tryna build with don’t or won’t like what you REALLY are or who you REALLY are, you’re probably not right for each other. And that’s FINE. If you won’t change, or can’t change for this endeavor — get out. Stop wasting people’s time!!! You’re wasting YOUR time and THEIR time.
Brave people are just as scared — but they look at the situation in the face and they look at that person in their face and they say “Y’know what? This is who I am. This is how I am.” And if they NEED to change it they make their changes and if they don’t WANNA change it, they don’t make a change and fuck who feels like they need to change — point is, they not tryna waste valuable time.

…I’ma tell you… I’m GLAD you hate me. GOOD, bitches. Good. HATE ME. Because I DONT LIKE COWARDS I KEEP THEM FAR FROM ME!

One thing my husband and I have = HONESTY and OPEN COMMUNICATION. We talk about it all, we lay it all out there. If it’s a PROBLEM, we are gonna get to the BOTTOM of it or it will END. If there needs to be a change that change is made OR IT IS DONE. We’re not wasting our TIME or anyone else’s and that’s why you HATING, all this “Rebecca’s FAKE because she’s INCONSISTENT” and “Rebecca’s FAKE because she don’t tell us shit” BITCH — I’m SOOOOooooo very real. I tell what I tell to whom I tell because it’s necessary for that relationship to grow and move forward. And I don’t tell to whom I don’t tell because either it’s unnecessary, or the relationship itself is unnecessary.

Bad news = bad news — but it’s a chance to move forward or move on if need be. Get some courage, BE REAL, or UNDERSTAND that the end of your relationship is IMMINENT. 

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Shalom!

Well, a young woman on youtube contacted me with some questions and I was so intrigued by our dialogue that I just put it out on the table for her. She was shocked and I asked for a picture of her to show hubby, who was also shocked.

She sent a picture and he finds her very attractive.

We have been chatting back and forth for about a month or so now. We only recently exchanged numbers. My husband will call her as soon as we have a moment; if you were not aware we are currently in our holiday season. We follow the moon by eye-sight, so we coincide with the kairite jews and the yemenites who do not follow any rabbinically created hebrew calendar. So for us, Sukkot is starting Sunday night, October 4.

We will be out at Joe Pool Lake with HUNDREDS OF OTHER PEOPLE. Some are families we already know.
We invited our potential out but she has to work. Another time; she is many states away.
None of us are “used” to long distance relationships.

I really hope this works out. I pray for Yah’s Will to be done in the matter and I pray that, if this be His Will, that she be a good match for our household.

If no one’s seen her blog, there is a young lady who is wife #3 that has a blog, called Megan’s polyblog. She just found out she’s pregnant, 6 months into the marriage. They’re all happy.

Since we have been in a time of repentance I’ve had to do alot of soul searching. I have to make sure that I am where I need to be, spiritually. It is very hard, still living in the world and not being “of” the world. This walk certainly can get lonesome. I AM peculiar amongst my friends, to the point where they pick at me about it.

I mentioned possibly going to an associate’s pool party. The reply “There’s pork in the pool.”
I mentioned possibly going to this lounge in town, Joyce Lounge. The reply “Sounds like a religious lounge.”
When we through our little W&C get together alot of people didn’t come. Apparently someone speculated that it would be a “religious” thing.

Wow.
So. I am alone.
But y’know what?
YAHSHUA SAID I WOULD BE ALONE.
He said you’d lose your family and friends, following Him.
So I can’t be TOO bad off, right?
I Praise His Name. I Bless the Name of YAHWEH!

WHATEVER HIS WILL IS, I am happy to follow Him.

We will have a good Sukkot. I am praying that all goes well for us out there and that Yahweh is glorified in our fellowshipping and worshipping of Him. And I pray that we are all edified in our understandings of things…

Shalom for now…

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